it’s beginning of the holidays. great and bad at the same time cause there are many things i want to do but yet i know that i won’t be able to do so. saturday cell was great as usual but thoughts just came running into my head, and i was really confused, in a sense lost. these few weeks the sermons are always pointing out something to me and it is something similar. i think god is trying to reveal to me what he would want me to do. i made a promise and i do not want to break it, i’m trying hard to keep it and i believe i’ll grow stronger over the time. it’s monday yet i feel so blank and i have no idea what i’m going to do. there’s a few places i really want to go alone, but it’s weird and the place is really far. soon i hope. there is going to be no more hate in me and yet i want to be filled with love instead and be able to spread the love to others like how god loves me so much. each day is going to be a better day from now onwards god bless everyone.

yesterday was hilarious to the max like seriously it was really funny!

going there tomorrow again but in school uniform

anyway really glad I got my answer to that question that i always had in my head.

survived 3.5 hours of maths today so wonderful right right. 2 hours of chem tomorrow not sure if can survive

but i’ll try my best at least. ending school in two more days cool.

hunger for hunger. i’ll never get enough of you i’ll never be contented with what i have now.

even though i am hungry for you but i’ll not get contented. there is no place for complacency.

this journey i’ll walk it with you i know i’m not alone.

to live a life of hope and with faith i know i’ll be able to finish the race well.

i’m holding tightly onto you, i will never let it go.

sometimes i really hate your ways of doing things

and sometimes your appearance just ruins everything

i don’t want to hate you. you always appear when i want to do something alone with others~

i made a promise not to hate…hatred is not suppose to be in me

the distance we’re keeping is the best for me right now.

why aren’t things going the way it suppose to be?

i am really really tired of all this things!

every time i say something you will always have something to say

isn’t there one time where you can just keep quiet and listen to me

it’s hard but i won’t give up

i made a promise not to scream at you or to shout at you but you are really making my whole life upside down

my whole mind is confused now… i really want to be with you but it’s hard.

i felt your presence!

a class without a form teacher isn’t complete at all

it may be a good thing that she changes an environment

tears just keep flowing down when i heard that

really hope that all she said was fake.

woo the weekend is going to be fun haha cool.

the week of school ended like that

can’t really bother about the results i got i expected it at least haha

papers after papers disappointment after disappointment this week wasn’t a good week to say. it feels like there is no point coming to school sometimes when everything expected will happen. awaiting the weekends to come cause i know there is going to be something i’ll do to repent or anything. everything just lightens up! keep faith for that’s what many people told me to do and a miracle will happen. i’m still waiting for the miracle to happen and i really hope it will happen this weekend. there are times where i feel really useless where i can’t do anything to help,  it feels really horrible. but still i’m going to stay strong and have faith cause revival is about to happen. it’s amazing what god can do. woo with god nothing is impossible my favorite quote!!! anyway people don’t feel discouraged or anything cause what we are aiming for is the big one next year. stay strong cause we’re all going to pull through together and to purity next year we will mug even harder cause we will do our teachers proud. i’m praying praying praying everything will turn out well cause i believe he will see our sincerity. god bless everyone!

today is awesome awesome awesome. haha managed to buy clothes after a thousand years…like really after a thousand years. hahah today went bugis with nicole and chermin tan…woohoo. like was walking here and there fun ah. oh oh oh we all bought the same jeans so amazing right hahah then me and chermin bought the same blouse haha so funny~ we should do this more often…walking here and there but my leg really hurts and my back. my old and awesome back hahah!thanks for today it was great! ahh i want to knock their head for stealing my phone alright…not funny at all!!!

hahah it’s exciting thinking about it can’t wait for it to happen hahah!