Is there a reason why I can’t get you off my head?
Is it really that difficult for me to put down everything.
I really hate this kind of feeling cause I really don’t know what to do right now.
I’m lost really lost. This feeling isn’t good at all.
I’m just praying that one day I’ll be able to put down my everything for Him. I’m just praying that this day will be soon.
There was a reason why i wasn’t there. I totally did not regret it at all, there maybe many people saying that it was great; a pity that i missed it. But i totally didn’t feel that way cause i know His presence is everywhere and there was sure a reason why i couldn’t go. I got my answer and was really glad that i didn’t go now cause if I did, this probably wouldn’t happen at all. Really thank Him for the perfect plans he have for my life, to live for Him not for myself. I’m really grateful, it seems like a miracle did happen, the rules i set, i’m going to achieve it. Our almighty God, praise Him, thank Him for all the love he has given us.
I’m in a fight not physical
And I’m in a war
But not with this world
You are the light that’s beautiful
And I want more
I want all that’s Yours
Joy unspeakable that won’t go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
‘Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God
I am counting on
I am counting on God
The miracle of Christ in me
Is the mystery that sets me free
I’m nothing like I used to be
Open up your eyes you’ll see
“For God so loved the world that he gave his only son for who so ever that believed in him shall not perish but have an ever lasting life” – John 3:16
What’s wrong. Can’t you just open your mouth? is it really that hard? it really annoys me so much, why can’t you just open up with your problems, yes i know i may not understand but what’s the problem with keeping it to yourself? it’s not like you will be able to do anything if not the problem would have been solved long time ago. Asking you time and time again are you alright, just as a friend. it’s really annoying, sometimes i really just want to let go of this friendship but i’m holding on to it so tightly cause hatred will just grow in me like that and i really don’t want it to happen. Yes I know that I may not actually understand what your feelings are, but isn’t it always better to open this heart of yours. Each and every time you say you are alright it just seems like a lie to me, your expression just tells it all. How am i going to hold on when it seems like I’m the only one holding on to it. I really want to let go, all the things you are doing is always against me, maybe i should just let go.
i’m not going to think about it anymore cause the more I think about it the more I’ll get annoyed, I’m going to hate her at this rate. But hate is not going to be in me. It’s really going to be a difficult time, seeing her quite often isn’t going to make things any better. Maybe I’m just thinking too much, but really even someone else knows. I’m not the only one thinking like that. I’m not going to talk about it anymore. GAH I want to go for camp K.O badly, I’m so going to miss out something great. so depressing can! His presence is going to be so great then, breakthroughs are going to happen, revival is going to happen. I’m just praying that I’ll be able to go for the services 😦
it has been a great week for me seriously. with Him around everything was so great, so awesome.
yes, camp was a blast! a pity can’t go for camp K.O. but i guess there is a reason for it. But anyway things has been so great.
i’m going to keep to what i’ve said “start studying in december”. i’m so going to have fun studying, i kind of miss these days
less blogging more studying. it’s going to be great.
woohoo tmr is gonna be exciting to the max…can’t wait i guess it’s going to be super fun.
waiting for sunday too!
this weekend is going to be filled with excitement.
your presence will be best of all:)
every few steps I take, there are bound to be set backs. i’m holding on to it tightly, this promise I want to keep to it cause it’s really important to me. i’m holding tightly to you, there will be no one else. these promises are made and it has an impact to me. whether it is that person or them, i’m really trying my hardest to hang on there. temptations are put in front of me each time, i’ll have the faith to push them aside and i know i’ll grow stronger to be more mature. no more tears, it isn’t going to make things better. i know i have to face it someday and i’m ready to face it. You are giving me strength and grace to overcome these trials.
‘For it is by grace, you have been saved, through faith‘ – Ephesians 3:8
it’s beginning of the holidays. great and bad at the same time cause there are many things i want to do but yet i know that i won’t be able to do so. saturday cell was great as usual but thoughts just came running into my head, and i was really confused, in a sense lost. these few weeks the sermons are always pointing out something to me and it is something similar. i think god is trying to reveal to me what he would want me to do. i made a promise and i do not want to break it, i’m trying hard to keep it and i believe i’ll grow stronger over the time. it’s monday yet i feel so blank and i have no idea what i’m going to do. there’s a few places i really want to go alone, but it’s weird and the place is really far. soon i hope. there is going to be no more hate in me and yet i want to be filled with love instead and be able to spread the love to others like how god loves me so much. each day is going to be a better day from now onwards 🙂 god bless everyone.
yesterday was hilarious to the max like seriously it was really funny!
going there tomorrow again but in school uniform 😦
anyway really glad I got my answer to that question that i always had in my head.
survived 3.5 hours of maths today so wonderful right right. 2 hours of chem tomorrow not sure if can survive
but i’ll try my best at least. ending school in two more days cool.
belle (: 